metanoia – the journey of changing one’s mind, heart, self, or way of life

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The older I get, the more keenly aware I am that the universe tends to put you exactly where you’re supposed to be when you’re supposed to be there. Pretty much anyone who has met me knows that I’ve never been able to sit in one place for very long. The people who know me the best know that this is echoed throughout my body when I’m going to bed… I full-body twitch as I’m slipping into dream land. I’ve had people tell me it’s because my body is always moving. Whether I’m walking around, dancing while I’m standing in line, dancing behind the wheel of my car, or quite literally driving across the country on a whim – I’m always moving.

I called one of my mentors earlier this year and told him I was taking a break from theatre and stopping the crazy. I talked to him about 7 or 8 months later and told him that since I had talked to him last – I quit my job, was hired to be the choreographer for a children’s theatre program, was offered a series of shows that would take me into 2017, and was offered to choreograph and direct my first full show. After telling him this – he said, “Honestly, Tyler, I knew you were going to lose your damn mind if you tried to stop the crazy. You love the crazy. You live in the crazy.”

I did some SERIOUS introspection through Julia Cameron’s The Artists Way (which I live and breathe by now and think everyone needs to do this book/program) and found out that I’ve been giving myself all kinds of excuses to not be creative and not lead the life that I want to lead. One of the things and people the universe put in my lap was Shrek the Musical at the Atlanta Lyric Theatre with Ms. Marcy Millard (and a whole SLEW of truly amazing people). I had my cards read, which normally would freak me out but wound up being one of the most peaceful and healing things I have ever done. My cards talked about how I need to let go of negative connections in my life in a positive way, and that in my physical and spiritual life – no one can tell me what the answer is. Those answers lie within myself, and I will come to them in time.

I started this adventure photography blog three years ago when I came to the Springer in Columbus, GA for the National Tour of California Dreamin’. And now, I’ve found myself back in Columbus setting the Springer’s National Tour of Route 66. Since I’ve been here, I’ve walked the Chattahoochee pretty much daily, I’ve met some of the most incredibly full-of-life people I have ever met, been dragged out of bed at 7am to climb a mountain to watch the sun rise, foraged a creek, took a sensible trip to Orlando for 18 hours, and I’ve been more happy and at peace than I have ever been in my life.

I have this theory about deja vu… I think it’s a sign that you are exactly where you are supposed to be in that moment. I am in my element, and I am exactly where I’m supposed to be.